In the months that have passed without any blog posts from me, I have thought about it every now and then. Usually I don't get anything to blog about. Nothing significant happens in my life these days, just the same old story of a newbie in the IT professionals' world. Working from Monday to Friday, all the while thinking of the weekend, cursing my fate when work-pressure leads to work-on-weekends, and sleeping like a sloth or eating the rest of the times. And yeah, hanging out with friends whenever possible. There is nothing called "free time", no sketching (even imagination cannot enter my crammed brain these days), nothing I can do about my expanding waistline since gym has become a distant dream, thanks to work plus the 5 hours I spend traveling every weekday. Still I am not complaining. I am not complaining because I realize I am better off than a lot of people just like me --- Freshers. People like me who are frustrated because they have nothing to do but go to office just because they need to show up. Frustrated because they do mechanical jobs day after day, not knowing when will it end. Frustrated because some people make the their lives hell without any valid reason, just for the simple fact that they can. So yes, I am better off. I have decent work (though I don't know about its certainty), good colleagues who are considerate towards me and I get to sleep on my own bed every night, not in some damned paying-guest-arrangement. Even if something great happens, its usually related to office, which is not appropriate enough to be put on public display or is too personal.
But then my blog deserves some attention. Even if I cannot put up a great piece, or a poem, or any sketch, I can at least put up things I feel. Not in minute details (oh yes, I would love to thrash some people with my words) but in general. For better or for worse, my life has changed. Its as if life itself has turned to me and has told me "You need to grow up now". That doesn't mean I have to like it. But at least I can do little things to remind myself every now and then, who I am as a person. Like having lousy-office-coffee in the morning with my regular coffee-partner. Like joining two lunch tables and eating together with the fifteen other people of our batch, talking and listening to try and ease out the frustrations that have crept into almost every person, in various ways and forms. And its not just work related frustrations. But there are good things as well, beneath all the layers of mundane daily life. Every now and then, I get to hear things which brings a smile to my face. Like someone trying to get love back into their lives because they were too stupid to realize its true meaning earlier, someone who is planning to buy an anniversary gift for their parents and debating different options, someone bringing up the issue of a probable farewell for some senior who has been good to us right from the start, who is leaving in a few days' time, someone who has just been lovestruck for the first time and is struggling to befriend that person, someone who has started learning a new skill like driving, someone who has his or her birthday coming up and others planning a surprise for them and so on. It tells me that life has both good and bad parts and we need to keep reminding ourselves of the good parts when the bad ones seem very daunting. It definitely helps. I am not too great a writer, but hell, it makes me feel better.
So don't lose your SELF... Adios!
